一本备忘录

 

照片收获于旧金山。话题是关于美国人的富有。

 

前一天晚上，我在市中心溜车，没有钱，于是百无聊赖，一个中年女人向我扬招搭车。据分析，她吃了一种叫“Crack"的毒品，经济实惠，反应强烈，但是对大脑伤害极大，有美国人猜想这是早年政府为了实行种族灭绝，流放出来的一种便宜上瘾好用的毒品。于是这个女人思路混乱，她让我送她回家，一路吹嘘她拥有的一幢上等楼房，她一口酒气，说她讨厌Party，讨厌Party里面虚伪的人群，说她要回家，回到一座上等的楼房独处。她突然变得凶悍，因为她不能忍受纽约来的人看见红灯拒绝右转，但是我很欣赏她每句话都用到Please，她显然受过教育，但是毒品让她的恶魔跃跃欲试。她还说，我是今天晚上最甜蜜的人，因为她在马路上扬招，只有我像傻逼一样停下来了。她突然命令我转弯，于是我就像傻逼一样转弯了，她说停，我们就停在了市中心的一家杂货店门口。她要买烟，让我继续像一个甜蜜的人在杂货店门口把着一辆租来的新车等她。她还没有进入店门，就被一大群黑鬼包围。对不起，我从来不用”黑鬼“这个词语，但是那天晚上，我的确看到了一群黑鬼，他们像吸石一样包围她，他们龌龊，他们缓慢，他们喃喃的说着胡言乱语，他们黑色的帽子压住了黑色的脸。女人迅速的冲回车，把着门向我喊道，借我点钱！借我点钱！那些黑鬼已经把我借来的新车团团围住。此时，我已经彻底变成了一个真正意义上的傻逼，我像白痴一样问道，你要多少？她神情肃穆的命令我道，给我2块钱！我说，What?! 此时我对自己的英文理解能力产生了彻底的怀疑，干脆像神经病一样牛逼了一计，我回答道，我不借钱！那个女人傻了一秒钟，她突然也发了一计神经病，她像一个领袖一般向所有的黑鬼挥手宣布道，这个最甜蜜的人今天不借钱！老子的汗全部下来了。上帝就在这时眷顾了一个无辜的人，警察不知道怎么就在街逢中钻了出来。黑鬼向鬼一样散开，一时间无影无踪。我回过头去，一条市中心的空街，杂货店里的日光灯，电风扇。那个女人还坐在我旁边，她依旧用Please这个动词凶悍的命令我，Go！我一脚油门，小车吱遛的穿梭出去，我并没有感觉刚被打了劫，相反，是我抢了银行。我问女人，你要去哪里。她说，回到刚刚你捡起我的地方。

 

美国是个大国，因为他富有。美国人不会饿，因为他们并没有饥饿。美国人爱国，他们听见国歌会自觉的把手捂住胸口，但是和美国人一起看奥运会，他们并不为美国队加油助威。他们觉得美国人拿的奖牌太多了，不能这样自私自利，应该和所有的国家一起分享。今天看新闻，说朝鲜运动员拿了金牌，将会享受国家英雄级待遇，举国欢庆。我闭气眼睛，突然庆幸睁开以后，自己并没有在朝鲜民主共和国游荡。

 

今天还收到了Dean群发给他所有朋友的Email。他向大家宣告，如果麦卡恩获选总统，共和党将继续执政，任何角落美国政府参与的战争还要继续下去，他将带着自己的两只猫离开美国的国土，不再回家。 Dean是我以前的Roommate，他是一个穷鬼，他穷得连出门的地铁票也买不起。他说，他要离开美国。

以下是他的信件，我为美国人骄傲。

 

TO LISA IN PARTICULAR AND TO ALL IN GENERAL:

 

This is a personal letter I sent to my family. I urge you all to read this article I link to and to seriously think about your future in this country should McCain win the White House. I would like to see you all make it through the tough times ahead should the unthinkable happen.

Please do all you can for the Obama campaign.

 

Love to all of you, but to Lisa especially,

Dean

 

From: treadway237@hotmail.com

To: jabspad@aol.com; lynntreadway@mindspring.com; pawntakesqueen@hotmail.com

Subject: This is serious

Date: Fri, 22 Aug 2008 09:52:04 -0400

 

Now, I know that politics is a thorny subject between us all. And this is not a message about trying to get you to think one way or another. But I do have an article for you to read, written by a Reagan appointee who's now a member of the populist party. I read this yesterday and had to take two extra pills to calm down. It still depresses me if I think about it too much and I find myself considering moving out of the country, for my own sake, if McCain wins. I just don't think my nerves will be able to take it.

 

 

Before you read this incredibly scary article, very well informed and plausible, please scroll down and read Paul Craig Roberts' bio. He is a staunch Republican who's served his party well and now finds the party taken over by neoconservatives who want armageddon.

 

I know you think I'm overreacting. This is such a big statement--that we're headed for nuclear war--that it's difficult not to blow it off as the words of a lunatic. But he sure doesn't sound like a loony. He sounds like someone who really knows what's going on and is totally in the loop. He's not disgruntled, either, just disappointed.

 

For me, with my weak nerves and overactive brain, this comes down to a choice: will I have to live with the encroaching threat of a nuclear war with a presidency that perhaps wants to see it happen (and even if you think this is overreacting, this is how I really feel, right or wrong), or do I just simply look for some measure of peace in a faraway country where we might not be touched by a tactical nuke? I know I've said I wanna go up with New York, but I think I might have something more to live for.

 

So if McCain wins, I think I'll be looking to move me and the cats to either the Netherlands or Iceland. ANd I am dead serious about this. I'll leave most of my stuff in storage here, rent out my place, and three months into his presidency, I'll be gone and you probably won't see me again. But we'll still be connected by phone and internet.

 

I love all you guys and hope you and your kitties and doggies are doing well!!

 

Dean

 

从我的贴图，从Dean的信件，我想说，American are only hungry for being complete human being.